Tuesday, March 10, 2026

Lexington: Anatomy of a Novel. Ch.22-23

 

Chapter 22

Castle Island, Boston

July 1774

 

 JAMES HOLLOWAY HAD grown used to sleeping in a hammock.

He’d stopped vomiting in rough seas. He preferred calm seas, but the ship had been stationary twice, if stationary were possible on water. Not a puff of wind moved the sail. If James liked the lack of movement, it postponed arriving in Boston, ending what he was thinking of as a nightmare.

On days he could not fall asleep due to the noise from people cleaning the ship, fixing whatever needed to be fixing, stomping around on the deck above the sleeping hammocks, he wondered if he would be in the colonies forever. The longer he was on the water the more he couldn’t imagine submitting to a second voyage, even one taking him back to England.

“Three years, three years, three years, that’s all I’ve committed to,” he chanted to himself as he kneaded the bread each day. “One year gone, one year gone, one year gone.” He massaged the memory of having been told at the end of his three-year commitment, he could leave. Since joining, he’d heard rumors that some soldiers, who returned to civilian life, stayed in Boston. They might be given a piece of land to farm. He’d heard other rumors that land was cheap in New England and the further from the city, the cheaper the land. He didn’t know which rumors to believe — if any.

He preferred being a soldier to his life in Ely. He would use this period to decide what to do with the rest of his life. He didn’t want to be a farmer. It was enough that back home they had a small plot of land for vegetables, a few chickens, a cow. It met most of their needs.

Maybe he could open his own bakery in Boston. Save his pay to finance it. The thought amused him. He’d joined the regiment to escape the life of a baker, and he might end up as a baker to escape the regiment. Yet he could run the bakery the way he wanted.

Maybe Boston had more bakeries than they needed. Maybe one of the nearby villages would need a bakery. It wasn’t going to worry him until he’d could check the place out.

He worried about the locals over there. There was a lot of jabber about how some of the colonists wouldn’t obey English laws and fought every tax the King demanded. As his commanding officer said in one of their regular information lessons, how the hell did they expect the King to pay for their protection. The locals were also described as being people who would as soon cheat a soldier as breathe.

“All of them?” James had asked.

“Most,” the commander had said.

James fell asleep wondering if there would be enough flour to last until they reached land. When he woke, something felt strange. He realized the boat wasn’t moving. “Shit, becalmed again.”

But then he heard people running and hollering.

Climbing up on deck, he saw an island with a long gray stone building. They must be at their destination, Castle Island just off the Boston coast. 

 

Chapter 23

Argelès-sur-mer, France-Geneva, Switzerland

May

 

WE DROVE FROM Argelès-sur-mer, France to Geneva, Switzerland yesterday, a normal six-to- eight-hour trip. It took 10 hours, which meant it was too late to even turn on the computer to write when we arrived and finished settling in.

We did some sightseeing along the way. My husband knew I wanted to see the oldest house in France, La Maison de Jeanne, in Sévèrac-le-Château, so he made it possible. More than once, he has pandered happily to my love of history and all things historic.

He hates to be a passenger, so he drives the entire route. This lets me sleep, think or write in my head on these trips when we are not chatting or listening to music.

This trip it is as if Daphne is in the back seat along with my teddy bear decorated suitcase and Sherlock, our dog. She is trying to communicate with me. She wants to talk about Gareth, her husband, and chides me for not developing her part in the novel sooner.

She has a point. My research was paying off and I was writing almost non-stop about James’ training and transfer to Boston. I need to listen to her.

She decries her situation as an accompanying wife. No matter whether overseas postings are diplomatic or corporate, these women must find something to occupy themselves. I’ve met so many of them in Geneva who had careers in their home countries and now have no professional outlet; they are at odds and ends.

They have two reactions. One group does nothing and is miserable. Another uses the time to develop a new way of living professionally, artistically, physically or emotionally. I want Daphne to fall in the latter group.

Daphne knows as a diplomatic wife she can’t work in the United States unless some company gets her a work visa. Even then, as a historian not in academia, jobs would be rare … more so because she lacks a Ph.D.

As a diplomatic wife, she is expected to attend some receptions, dinners and events, but they are not frequent enough to fill her days.

Gareth is sending her mixed messages. She shouldn’t work to be ready for whatever diplomatic function happens. Although he may be overworked and understaffed, he won’t let her fill in at the consulate until they can hire more people to fill the gap.

Daphne is a newlywed. She married Gareth before she really knew whom he was. She did not see or want to see the controlling side of him; that would add to her frustration.

Now I need to create both a situation where Daphne can find something meaningful to do as well as show the weakness of her marriage. At the same time, whatever I create needs to be related do James’s story, at least indirectly.

As we continue on the route to Geneva, both Daphne and I fall asleep. Tomorrow I will start to write.


 

Guilt for Killing



A finger on the button. 

An order to push the button on a Tomahawk missile. 

He obeyed.

The Tomahawk flew into Iran destroying a school killing 125 school children, little girls who will never again play with dolls, hug their daddies, have their first periods, have little girls and boys of their own. They won't even see another sunrise, sunset.

Does the person who pushed that button think, "I was just following orders," an excuse used at the Nuremberg Trials of Nazis, in Mai Lai and countless other times throughout history.

Did he think those little girls represented a danger to his country?

What if he had taken an AR-15 into a school in his own town and shot 125 school children? Would he have been branded a soldier doing his duty or a monster?

Does he think he did it for his president. Did he vote for that president?

Did he see the children as his enemy?

Did he feel the children were of a wrong religion?

Does he have children at home, little girls like the ones he killed?

Will he feel the guilt, suffer from PTSD as so many soldiers who committed terrible crimes against other humans in the name of patriotism war after, after war after . . .? 

Or for him was it just another day at the office? 



 

Monday, March 09, 2026

Lexington:Anatomy of a Novel. Ch. 20- 21



Chapter 20

Winchester, England

May 1774

 

 

JAMES HOLLOWAY TRIPPED over a branch and fell into a puddle. All the bread he was carried was soaked. How would he tell William?

“James, wake up! James, wake up!” It took James a few moments to realize he wasn’t in Ely on a rainy day, but in the 43rd Regiment of Foot’s barracks in Winchester. No longer were the recruits who joined with him in a separate room. Instead, they all had been melded into another building. One hundred cots were divided into two rows of fifty each.

There were small windows about eight feet up the wooden wall that made the room look as if it were a stable, except there were no barriers between beds and no straw on the floor. Each bed had a single blanket, but the weather had turned warm enough that most soldiers slept without it.

He had grown so accustomed to the routine that he didn’t even think about many of the things that he did daily. Because he did everything well, Anderson and Carver didn’t yell at him anymore. Most of the other soldiers were the same. Pride of performance ran high.

As he tried to orient himself, he felt a flash of gratitude that he had been dreaming and he wouldn’t have to face William about ruined bread.

His half-awake brain realized that it was Thomas Miller talking to him.

What was he doing waking him in the middle of the night?

Why was Thomas dressed in his uniform?

James rubbed his eyes and sat up. Thomas held out boots, which James slipped on without stockings, knowing the leather would chafe his feet.

Thomas pulled James to his feet, wrapped the blanket around his shoulders and led him between the rows of cots to the exit. He shut the door with only a slight click, although with the noise of the snorers it was doubtful any sleeping soldier would be disturbed.

“Follow me.”

James followed.

Outside only a sliver of moonlight pierced the dark. The roosters hadn’t crowed yet. No birds sang. It was spring cool. James shook his head. “What’s, I mean why …?”

About fifty feet from the door, Thomas said. “We’re going to the colonies. Boston, the whole bloody lot of us.”

James had heard of the colonies. His great uncle had moved there well before he was born. The only reason he knew anything about the uncle was that his mother had mentioned her brother, whom she had never heard from after he left. He was held up to her children as someone who dared. Dared to try and find a better life. Dared to not do what everyone else did. James was never sure because of his disappearance, if the daring was a good or bad thing. Since his mother assumed he was dead the scale tipped on the bad side.

James’s father did not speak well of the uncle. His departure for the colonies had more to do with the danger of being arrested for poaching. The mention of him always led to an argument between James’ parents. His mother mourned that the family had never heard anything from him after he left/escaped depending on whether it was his mother or father telling the story.

James wished he could have talked to his uncle about what happened to him. He was sure he would recite adventures.

“What are you talking about?”

Thomas looked around to make sure no one could hear, which was absurd, James thought. Everyone was asleep. “When I was waiting tables at the officers’ mess, I heard the officers talking. We are going to cross the Atlantic. The colonists need controlling. The second Tea Party was the last straw, they said.”

“Hun?” James rubbed his eyes.

“The colonists didn’t want to pay the tea tax so they dumped a whole bunch of tea into the Boston Harbor, at least that’s what some of the officers were saying.”

“I know about the tea party. Stupid name for vandalism. So? What has that got to do with us?”

“The Governor, I think his name is Hutchinson or something, wants reinforcements. I guess he’s worried about some kind of uprising.”

James rubbed his eyes. He hadn’t paid much attention to the little they heard from the colonies. He knew they didn’t like taxes, especially a stamp tax, but who did? They were Englishmen. Englishmen paid taxes to the King. The sun came up in the morning whether or not one could see it through the clouds.

“When? How?”

“They’ve already arranged for a ship or ships. There was lots of jabber about how much room for how many. Horses. Food. Guns. Powder. As for when? Soon. Maybe even this week. 

 

Chapter 21

Atlantic Ocean

June 1774

 

JAMES HOLLOWAY COULD see nothing but open sea. He had stared at the English shoreline until it had disappeared about an hour ago.

“I’m a soldier. I shouldn’t be afraid,” he muttered. He found it amazing that with about 800 soldiers and a crew cut in half to make room for soldiers that this floating combination of wood, metal and cloth could cross this endless mass of water to Boston.

He was afraid, although he would never admit it. He had no way to get off without drowning. He wanted his feet to be on a surface that didn’t move.

His back and shoulders ached from carrying supplies of salt pork, beef, flour, plums — where had they come from? — oatmeal and kegs of beer. Heavy, heavy kegs of beer. They rolled them part of the way, but then they had to be hoisted onto shelves and secured with rope so they wouldn’t roll off and kill someone.

The food at the base had not been wonderful, but this was going to get more boring, day after day, week after week.

Their commanding officer had shown them a map to their final destination. He had seen a map of his trip from Ely to Winchester with towns and villages marked along the way. Only water existed from England to Boston. Light blue lines marked coastlines too far apart.

Those not on some kind of immediate duty could wander the ship. To reassure himself, James explored all four decks, estimating that the ship was 177 x 144 feet or close to it. He counted the sails that were up each day. He dreaded that he might have to climb the masts. He and heights would never be friends. He counted 90 cannons protecting the ship from pirates. He had never thought that meeting a pirate would be in his future.

On the fifth day, the ship’s strength was tested.

A major storm tossed the boat like the balls James had thrown against the house as a child. They had bounced, making noise, until his father or mother yelled at him to stop and complete his chores. The ship kept bouncing. Nothing was going to stop it.

He lay in his hammock wishing he were dead. He had emptied his stomach so often that not even bile came up, but still he heaved.

He wasn’t alone. Those in other hammocks were doing the same. Two hammocks down Danny, the drummer boy, slept. Twice, Danny’s mother, when he had eaten with the family, had asked him to protect her son. How could anyone protect against a storm where the waves continually tossed the boat hither and yon.

The lower decks stank of vomit, bile, shit.

The sound of vomiting and moaning combined with wind and waves slapping against the ship made James rethink his disbelief in hell.

After three days, James woke in his hammock, where he had taken refuge between spells of vomiting. The smells were still there but the ship, instead of being thrown about, was almost still.

With what little strength he had left, he staggered to the upper deck. A breeze kissed his face, a reminder of his survival. The sails barely moved, a bad sign. The sails to propel the ship to Boston had to be stronger to end this nightmare. The less sail, the longer the trip.

Several of his regiment were on the deck, some laying down too weak to do otherwise: others washed the deck or made repairs. One mast was laying on the deck. Some of the sails in tatters were being mended.

Toby, a member of the regular crew, came through saying, “Ya must eat mates. Build your strength.”

Food was the last thing on his mind. James barely had the strength to make it to the deck. If he went below to face a table covered with food or to sip a beer, he’d gag.

“I ain’t bringing the food to you,” Toby yelled. He wasn’t an officer, so James felt no need to obey him.

Days later when James had been able to eat and once again the ship was moving normally, the officers were trying to get the company back into some kind of order.

Where they slept below had been washed down with sea water reducing the smell to bearable.

Regular duties had been assigned.

Thomas had volunteered to climb the masts. It was the one job that James couldn’t imagine doing, but he admired his friend’s courage.

Word came down that the ship’s baker had been swept overboard in the storm. James had been one of the soldiers assigned to search every cranny to find him without success. The regular crew, who had sailed with the baker for several years, mourned his passing.

James went to the lieutenant who had supervised the cleanup. “Sir, before I joined, I was a baker. Could I be of use?” His motive was not totally selfless. If he were responsible for baking, he would never be required to climb a mast.

Thus, James found himself in the galley. The oven was better than the one he had had at home, the flour of lesser quality. It didn’t matter. For the rest of the voyage, he was saved from all other duties.

He shared his hammock with Joseph Cavanaugh, a boy from Ireland. Not at the same time of course. James began baking bread at three in the morning. This was about the same time Joseph came off his watch. When Joseph was getting up, James went off duty. Sometimes the two of them would chat at the hand over. Joseph was excited to be going there because his older brother had gone to Boston many years before as an indentured servant.

It could have been worse, he kept telling himself.

The Swiss Have Voted

Once again the issues that affect people are voted on by the people. Here are the results:

  • The Swiss pay a license fee for TV and radio which funds many stations. They voted NOT to reduce it. 
  • The vote to put the requirement that cash continue to be issued into the constitution was passed. This means digital and banks will not have total control of a person's money. Cash is Freedom. 
  • Until now couples had filed taxes as a unit. They voted to allow couples to file separately.
  • They voted down a climate fund.

Can you imagine being able to vote on these issues in the U.S:?



Sunday, March 08, 2026

Teaching Love of Reading


Reading lets kids and adults live lives they might not live otherwise, to go places without leaving home. Ideas are only limited by the books chosen.

Recently students complained to a teacher that they had to read four books a year. The teacher had gone to Boston Latin School with my daughter. During each summer break they were given a list of books, told to select ten to read during the summer. They were quizzed in September.

That teacher was not sympathetic to her students.

I find I'm better friends with readers. We have so much more to talk about. Especially living in a non-Anglo environment sharing books is as natural as breathing. A good, good friend told me how she was disappointed that she hadn't learned to read the first day of first grade. She is a life-long reader and we share books where our tastes overlap.

I was read to as a child including novels. I still hold the Bobbseys, Old Grandfather Frog, Sammy Blue Jay and Reddy Fox as real friends in my heart.

Even when we had the first TV in town, everyone in my family still read. A book did not replace I Love Lucy, Uncle Miltie, Big Brother Bob EmeryHowdy Doody or vice versa. All had their place.

I read to my daughter. She doesn't remember all the Golden Books I read to her when I was barely able to stay awake myself. I've threatened, even though she is in her 50s, to buy copies of those books, and read them to her on her next visit. 

She does remember Green Eggs and Ham. My attempt to make green eggs did not change her opinion that eggs were to be read about not eaten.

When the book Green Eggs and Ham was left at my father's. She was upset. It took a couple of days for the book to arrive by mail. I realized that I had read it so many times that I could recite it by heart, but I could not recreate the pictures. 

Although I never tried it, I suspected I could have left my child in a bookstore in the morning with a sandwich and thermos and pick her up after work and she might not have noticed I'd left. I could have saved a fortune in childcare.

After my divorce and living with a couple, Friday nights were family nights. We went to Harvard Square, ate at a restaurant, listened to the street musicians and bought whatever we would read during the week.

Books were part of my formal education/informal too. In fourth grade, when we finished our work early, we could read one of the short biographies of famous people. It was because of them I developed my love of history including Eleanor of Aquitaine.

I didn't necessarily love some of the classics. It was much better to walk through the House of Seven Gables than to read it. However, Grapes of Wrath converted me into a reading addict. I will never finish Ulysses including the Cliff Notes. At my age I feel free to admit, I don't like the book. 

A wonderful gift from a friend. A book vase.

I think to teach love of reading, it is also necessary to admit a certain dislike for a book. In disliking a book, it is good for a kid to know why they dislike it: 

  • Too much description
  • Not enough action
  • Unbelievable and/or unlikeable characters
  • Confusing
  • Boring etc.

They should also know why they like it.

INTERNAL vs. EXTERNAL

Yes, videos, television, movies, etc. can capture an imagination. It is external absorption. The story, facts, description are all provided for you. 

A book is internal. When we read, we absorb the words and take them into our brains. We activate our creativity by changing the words into images. 

I loved Parker's Spenser novels. I pictured Spenser as a wrestler/ boxer, broken face and burly with much muscle. In the TV series, which I also love (and watch when I want to visit Boston from the comfort of my French or Swiss homes), drop dead handsome Robert Urich was Spenser. Avery Brooks, the actor playing Hawk was just as I had imagined him down to the sneer.

How can a teacher or a parent invite a child into the world of books and make them love visiting?

  • Role modeling
  • Reading to them with books they'll love combined with bedtime cuddles when they are little.
  • Make it a game.
  • When possible visit what they read about. If they love dinosaurs visit a museum with a dinosaur skeleton.
  • Let them select the books.
  • Bribery with a favorite dessert, game, visit to wherever they want to go. (Don't say bribery is bad. We are bribed to work with the reward of a salary).

For teachers: what about having the class write a book or short stories as a group and make sure each kids has a copy, in paper or print. If a kid in class is artistic they could do the cover. If they realized what went into a book, they might look for these things in what they read.

For parents: make sure that the books you buy match the child's history. A biography of a loved football player, music star, pilot, etc.  Also encourage a trip to the library, especially if they have a children's reading program.

Books open the world. Kids need to peek into that world. So do adults.


 







Lexington: Anatomy of a Novel Ch.18-19


Chapter 18

Argelès-Sur-Mer, France

March

 

 

I’VE MADE A decision on years that I will cover. James will have joined the Army in 1773 and will sail for the new world in June 1774 after the Boston Tea Party and as rebel activity is heating up. This gives him time to be well-trained and I can show accurate training methods.

I’ve plenty of time to work. We are caught in the French pandemic shutdown, which eliminates our social life. We need an attestation each time we go out and are limited to one kilometer and one hour. We check why we are out such as doctors or buying groceries.

We do chat with neighbors who “borrow” our dog Sherlock for walks, which is one of the allowed activities.

At the same time, we have wifi problems. Our village is waiting for fiber. We can only have one internet connection at a time. When my husband needs it for his writing and research, I need to shut everything down and vice versa.

I use my downtime to read the books I’ve received and have downloaded information when it is my turn online.

James’ character is developing as I type. He will certainly not become a dedicated soldier between the time he joined and the time he goes to Boston. For the plot he needs to question just about everything he comes across, not a good trait for someone in the army where unquestioned obedience is required. Once in Boston, he will have more doubts.

At no time will James wish he were back in Ely. Instead, he will think of what he will do after his three-year contract is up.

I need to find ways to involve him in the events of the time, and more importantly, I need to make sure I write about the significant ones that lead up to the April 18th battle. I keep reading and researching, R&R, not rest and recreation.

Many soldiers didn’t have limited contracts and only left the army when they could no longer serve for medical or age reasons. There were also term contracts and that was what James chose when he was recruited, but I came across the information after I wrote the recruitment scene. I need to insert the different types of contracts into the story, which I think is preferable to rewriting the chapter where he was recruited.

Accuracy versus keeping tension in the story can be a problem. So far.

I need a scene? chapter? where they learn they’ll sail for Boston, but I’m not sure when to put that in the novel. I’m delaying writing it. I am trying to find the name of the ship the 43rd regiment of Foot sailed on but no luck despite contacting several historians. I have found a lot of information on the type of ship that they would have been on, the time it took for the voyage.

The research on the type of ship has gone well, thanks to YouTube documentaries. If I can’t find the name of the ship I have two choices.

·        Make up a name

·        Not mention the name and write around it.

A problem I have with YouTube is when I play one video there are several others on the side screen that would be interesting. Many have to do with my research, but others have no relationship. Sometimes, I lack the willpower to not watch them.

I’ve had more luck dealing with educational issues. James is an educated misfit wherever he goes. But he’s a personable misfit, intelligent and curious. If he had run the family bakery, he might never have joined up: I would have had to find a new character.

He was educated in Ely schools where he was an excellent student. In America and England of the time there were schools, including for the poor. Schools in Massachusetts were often called Blue Coat schools because the students wore blue coats to class.

I also learned about the Boston educational system of its time. In 1635 Boston Latin was founded to educate men, but I knew that. My daughter graduated from BLS in 1967. Harvard was founded for the graduates to study for the ministry, law, etc. Many of America’s founding fathers attended BLS.

For those that were not interested or didn’t have the ability for a classical education, there were writing schools, one of which would become important both to General Gage and thus to the plot. These schools were to teach those that would become clerks, store owners, assistants to lawyers, etc.

Overall, the Bostonians were educated.

I need to decide what to call the different factions: loyalists, patriots, rebels, Tories, Whigs, colonists. Does the term patriot means patriotic to the King or patriotic to the colonists who are unhappy with the King?

As I come across and delve into different topics, I get ideas on how I want them to work in the story, but it might be much later in the story. I need to make notes and I put notes at the bottom of the manuscript and mark it in red. If I learn something that should be added to what I’ve already written, then I go back and add it making sure I have it in the acknowledgements.

Unlike writing pure fiction, I can’t manipulate events that really happened, although sometimes I wish I could. 

Chapter 19

Winchester, England

April 1774

 

 JAMES HOLLOWAY WAS amazed when Anderson released them earlier than usual. By looking at the sun, he gathered he had at least an hour before it was time to eat.

He found it hard to believe that he’d been a soldier for almost a year. A small company of men passed by James and stood in front of the main center. A larger company followed. It had men in rows of four. The front row would pretend to shoot the Brown Bess. Then they would disappear to the back to fake reload as the next row did the same and went to the back. James had also spent hours and hours in the same drill.

If he were ever in a battle, he suspected the second row would be stepping over the bodies of the first, a rather unpleasant thought even more so if he were the one being stepped over. When he joined, he hadn’t thought about getting shot. He’d better make sure that he was a good shot so he could kill before being killed. The thought unnerved him.

Four times over the year they had shot real cartridges. What had surprised James was how hot his Brown Bess became. The soldiers joked they were in more danger from burns than bullets.

Twice they practiced in small groups of four spread out over the alleged battlefield. Another regiment pretended to be the enemy. Then they switched roles.

When they weren’t in drills, they kept the base spotless, fixed things that needed to be fixed, painted and cleaned … always there was cleaning.

Rumors abounded that his regiment would be sent in its entirety to Boston, but there were always rumors just about everything: meat alleged to be rotten, a serjeant found drunk, but instead of punishment, there was a cover-up.

James only half believed what he heard about the 43rd being shipped out.

He’d never see the ocean. In Ely there was an old man who had been a sailor. He talked of storms with waves as high as the cathedral and his ship being thrown around. He spoke of whales, fish almost as big as the ship itself. James had loved listening to his stories — but living them, that was different.

He didn’t know much about the colonies. There were stories about how the colonists were fighting against paying taxes. Hell, everyone paid taxes.

One of the new stories was how colonists dressed as Indians and threw an entire shipment of tea into Boston Harbor rather than pay tax. Bloody waste of good tea if anyone asked him, but of course, no one did.

Not for the first time did he hope he wouldn’t see battle.

In his mind he heard William chiding, “So why in bloody name did you join up?”

He shuddered. He hadn’t liked killing rabbits, but he liked eating them even with a smidgen of guilt and a lot of enjoyment at the same time.

God, life could be confusing.

Some days he wondered what the hell had he been thinking? Getting away. Changing his life. Never making another loaf of bread. How naïve. How stupid.

He supposed he could run away. But where could he go?

If he went home, a soldier might come through, a villager might mention him to that soldier who would report it to his superiors. He’d be returned and punished. The army did not take desertion lightly.

On other days he enjoyed the routine. He liked it especially when he learned something new. There was a manual that the soldiers followed. The lessons were read to the men by a corporal. It was detailed, even to the placement of their fingers on the gun in different positions. He wondered who had written it. One man? A group? Officers?

At one point he’d asked the corporal who’d answered, “How the hell should I know?” and walked off shaking his head.

It’s only for three years, with one gone already, he told himself when doubts seeped into his brain. The recruiter had given him a choice back in Ely: three, five years or indefinite. Despite the recruiter encouraging him for the indefinite contract, James had asked if he chose the three years, could he extend at the end. The answer was of course.

Thus, he had chosen the shortest term.

He thought as he walked, I changed my life and that’s a good thing.

What caught his eye was one of the new company drummers, a boy no more than 15. He sat on a bench outside the barracks, polishing his drum, although it already shone. The drum was green and red with paintings of soldiers in the 43rd regiment uniform.

He set down next to where the boy was working. “Hello Danny. Your drum is looking really shiny.” James knew the beat told the soldiers to march faster, slower, turn left, turn right, stop. Some commanders used hand signals, others rode or marched back to give the drummer orders. Some sent a messenger.

When he discovered something new, such as the reason and importance of the drumbeat, it created a moment of happiness that he had joined up. In Ely, he wondered, learning something new was usually some kind of gossip, who was sleeping with whom, who got drunk and fell in the river, etc.

“Where you from, Danny?”

“Right here in Winchester. My family blows glass, but I didn’t want to do that. Anyway, my four brothers are carrying on the family trade. Since I’m the baby, I had choices they didn’t.”

James was surprised at how much information Danny shared. He liked getting to know someone new.

The bugle for dinner sounded. “Coming to eat, Danny?”

“Nah, I’m heading home. My Mum’s cooking, beats what you’ll eat.”

*****

A week later on Saturday, the recruits were issued a six-hour pass to go into Winchester with orders to be back by midnight. “Don’t cause trouble. You get in trouble with the locals, it’s nothing like the trouble you’ll be in with me,” Anderson said. He said that every time.

James found Winchester a bit like Ely. He’d been told there were about 4,000 citizens but what surprised him was that many of the streets were paved.

A river, the Itchen, not much wider than the Ouse in Ely, ran down one section. Houses were on both sides of the bank. A few held businesses on the ground level, including a bakery, which was closed every time he walked by late in the day.

As it grew dark, a man walked down the street, sidestepping over the horse manure. He carried a torch on a pole to light the hanging oil lamps. James had not seen these before he had joined up. Every new thing made him smile to himself.

His fellow soldiers, including Thomas Miller, went to find beer, good or otherwise.

“I want to just walk around,” James said. “I may catch up with you later.” In reality, James was finding it difficult to be with people all day every day, even though he loved talking to people. Sometimes he thought it was like filling a bucket with water. When the bucket was full, it was full.

In Ely, after he’d sold his bread, after he’d talked about anything and everything with each of his clients, he relished the chance to sit down by the river by himself and just think. Now, almost every minute of his day was occupied.

At the base:

He dressed with others.

He cleaned the barracks with others.

He ate with others.

He marched with others.

He practiced loading his gun with others.

He went to bed when the others went to bed.

And always, always there was Anderson or Carver barking at them to do it better and faster. William and Anderson would get along well. Anderson considered each failure of a recruit the recruit’s fault, but with more drill on his part it would disappear. William had made it clear that every “failure” on James’s part was a deep character flaw, which could never really be corrected.

Doing nothing except what he wanted to do, even for an hour, was a gift. And doing nothing was doing something.

The spring air was gentle and dry with a light smell of horse manure drifting from where the horses had deposited it as they pulled carts through the streets. In the beginning of the week, they had two days of downpour. The puddles had dried.

Few people were out. As he passed one house, a voice called out, “Hey James.”

He looked to the window where the voice came from.

Danny was hanging over the first floor window sill and waving frantically. “What are you doing here?”

“Just looking around.”

“Come in and meet my Mum and the rest of the family.”

Before he could say he didn’t want to disturb anyone, the door opened. A woman motioned him in. “I’m Danny’s mother. You’re another foundling.”

“That’s what Mum calls anyone we bring home,” Danny said.

Before James could refuse, he was seated at a table; bread and a sausage were put before him along with a mug of beer.

He tried to sort out Danny’s brother and sisters from their spouses and offsprings. Their names had come faster than Anderson’s orders. It was hard because they all seemed to have the same round face, brown hair and brown eyes.

He heard more laughter during the meal than his family would have exhibited in six months day and night.

He was fascinated that different people seemed to know whose turn it was to go behind the house and return shortly thereafter. First, he thought they needed to pee, but when Danny stood, he said, “My turn to add logs to the fire. I’ll show you, James, if you want to come with me.”

Outside James saw a hive-shaped kiln.

“This is where my family makes their blown-glass products. Come.”

Danny led James to the front of the house where a shop displayed their products. He talked in a non-stop stream. “Our family was renowned for their glasses, dishes, vases. We even have a commission from the King.” He took a breath. “My Mum is amazing. When my father died a decade ago, she took over, saw that our glass was even better. She always wants us to be the best we can be.”

Danny went on. “That’s how I want to be about my drumming. I’m so lucky that my family understood why I didn’t want to do what they were all doing and that it wasn’t against them but for me.”

I wish my brother had felt like that, James thought.

Back inside, James’ mother asked him about his life. Although he told them about his family, he didn’t mention Bess. He wasn’t sure why.

When every morsel of food had disappeared, James said, “I must get back to base.”

“You don’t want Anderson mad at you,” Danny said. “What a temper that man has.”

Halfway down the street, right before he had to cross a bridge, he heard footsteps. For a second, he was worried that someone might rob him, but it was Danny’s mother. She was a full head shorter than James with hair that escaped her cap. It remained black. He wondered how a woman who produced that many children wasn’t gray. Maybe the heat from the kiln?

For a moment, instead of feeling homesick, he felt angry that his own family couldn’t have been like this. Had his wife lived, could they have created a family along with running the bakery? Not as long as William existed.

He must stop comparing his old life with his new, he told himself. It was what it was.

“James! James, I have a favor to ask you?” Danny’s mother was out of breath.

“I knew I’d have to pay for the meal.” The twinkle in his eyes matched hers.

“If you go into war, try and keep Danny out of harm?”

“I don’t think we have any plans for war.”

“Men always find a reason to go to war.”