Coat Hangers and Knitting Needles: A Pre-Revolution Abortion and Trial

 

A Pre-Revolution Abortion and Trial

The mores of the Pre Revolutionary time considered bringing on a woman’s late period with different plants, before the baby quickened, as not being an abortion.

Today Pomfret, Connecticut is a postcard of a New England town with churches, wooden houses, Robert Frost-type stone walls and ivy-covered brick buildings. In autumn, leaves turn brilliant red and gold. The 40-plus square miles covered by Pomfret lack a town center as such. A graveyard, going back centuries, has the thin stone tombstones typical of Puritan times. Some are askew.

The population in 2014 was about 4,100 people. Selectmen, the New England version of an elected town counsel with equal voting rights, govern Pomfret as they have through the centuries.

Probably most residents today would not guess that in 1745, 34 years after the village was incorporated and took its name from Lincolnshire, England, it was the scene of one of the first reported and prosecuted abortions in the new world. The University of Connecticut has published trial documents: http://history.uconn.edu/taking-the-trade-biographies

As more people immigrated and the new settlers reproduced, growth was constant. Although settlers found the class system more equal than the societies they had left, life was difficult. There were still poor whites, indentured servants, prostitutes and tenant farmers in comparison to those who garnered more prestige such as ministers, doctors, lawyers and landowners of various degrees of wealth.

Religion was strict. There were churches that considered an organ too liberal and dancing dangerous. These limitations seeped into the general population, influencing daily life. Celebrations did not include the too-Catholic Christmas.

Farmers represented about 90% of the people living in the colonies, although fishing, trapping, tobacco, blacksmithing, ship building, etc. were also practiced trades.

Those living in New England faced a rugged climate and topography. In Pomfret, because of its land-bound location and climate, things like commercial fishing, shipbuilding and even tobacco growing were not viable livelihoods. Much farming was subsistence.

One of the First Abortion Trials in the New World

Sarah Grosvenor lived all her life in Pomfret. By standards of the time, her family was well off. They owned farmland: her father was one of the first selectmen, elected as a village leader, in 1714.

When Sarah was born in 1723, Mary and Leicester Grosvenor already had one daughter, two-year-old Zerviah. Were the couple disappointed that the new baby wasn’t a boy? I could find no records of other children nor of Mary having miscarriages.

We know little of Sarah’s childhood, but at 19 she found herself pregnant by a man eight years her senior.

• Were they in love?
• Did she seduce him?
• Did he seduce her?
• Was it mutual desire?
• Did they make love once or many times?
• Where did they make love?

One of the frustrations with old records is that the many questions they raise have no answers nor any way to find those answers.

We do know the man’s name was Amasa Sessions. Amasa is a Biblical name, rather uncommon even in those times. In various documents he was described as “corpulent,” “capable” and “honest.”

In July 1742, sister Zerviah noticed Sarah was acting unwell. She suspected that her sister might be pregnant, but when she asked repeatedly Sarah denied it.

The girls’ mother, Mary, was so concerned about her daughter that she asked a neighbor, Dr. John Hallowell, to look at her. He told the family Sarah was not pregnant.

For reasons that are unclear in existing documentation, Dr. Hallowell took her to another house, where Amasa Sessions visited Sarah. When she returned home, she confessed she was, indeed, pregnant.

If Sarah had not been forthcoming with her sister, I am sure she did not rush to tell her parents that they might be grandparents. Although there is no record of any conversations, of her parents’ reactions, I can imagine they were not that different from any parent today who finds an unmarried daughter pregnant.

Zerviah was upset that her sister had not told her before, but Sarah had said she’d been “taking the trade,” the popular phrase of the time for using herbs to bring on a woman’s period, a common practice when an unwanted pregnancy was suspected.

Unlike today, there seemed to be no societal arguments about when life begins.

The mores of the time considered bringing on a woman’s late period with different plants, before the baby quickened, as not being an abortion.

Marriage would not have been an impossible alternative for Sarah and Amasa: they were of a similar class. Sessions never denied he was the father. He was reported to have visited Sarah willingly several times during the early part of her pregnancy.

Amasa was the third son of Joanna and Nathaniel Sessions. The Sessions ran a tavern out of their house. His father was involved in village politics. The fortunes of the family must have benefited from meetings held there.

That he was not overjoyed at being a father is a guess, based on Amasa’s reported conversations with John Hallowell. Amasa expressed his fear that his parents would make the young couple’s lives difficult should they marry, but I could find no explanation of why he thought that.

However, with persuasion, Sarah and Amasa decided to marry and stop any attempt to get rid of the baby, something Sarah was reported to be ambivalent about.

Despite that decision, two weeks passed. No banns, the local and conventional notice of intended marriage, were announced. Zerviah saw Amasa giving Sarah more herbs to “finish” what had been started. We don’t have any idea which herbs they were, but they did not work.

The assumption at the time was that abortion could happen only after the baby quickened, when the mother feels the baby moving (sometime around the fourth month). Until then, the loss of a baby was a miscarriage, whether it happened naturally or with help. Missing periods could be corrected by bringing the body back into “balance” using various herbs. Sarah was in her fourth month when the baby quickened, making the removal of the fetus an abortion, not a balancing of her menses.

According to her friend Abigail Nightingale’s testimony at a trial three years later, Sarah had told she had felt the baby move for about a fortnight when abortion attempts were begun.

Much feminine medical care was general knowledge shared by women. A number of plants that lead to abortion (abortifacients) were available and were considered effective: juniper, pennyroyal and seneca snakeroot were among the popular plants “to restore balance” and all grew in the Pomfret region. If a book of abortifacient herbs was available to women in Colonial times, I have not been able to locate it.

When the pregnancy continued, Dr. Hallowell surgically removed the fetus, but it took him two attempts over two days. The surgery took place at Sarah’s 30-year-old cousin Hannah’s house. Sarah told her friend Abigail that Dr. Hallowell put instruments on the bed and tried to remove the baby.

At one point, Sarah fainted. Zerviah brought cold water to revive her. Amasa hid out at Mr. Waldo’s, a local tavern, during the procedures.

Sarah went home that night but did not miscarry for another two days. The fetus, which fell into a chamber pot, appeared damaged; it was wrapped in cloth and buried near the house.

Within ten days, Sarah sickened, most likely from infection caused by dirty instruments. This was well before the importance of cleanliness was discovered. Her family called in two other doctors. Neither was able to save her.

She died 14 September 1742.

Court records show testimony by Dr. Hallowell that he said he was responsible for her death.

Why there was no official court action for three years is not explained. Not until 1 November 1745 did two county magistrates issue calls for Amasa, Hallowell, Hannah and Zerviah. Hallowell’s depositions were delayed. He was in a debtor’s prison in Connecticut.

The Inferior Court heard depositions which still exist today.

Hallowell was found guilty of murder. Amasa, Hannah and Zerviah were named as accessories to the crime.

Lexington: Anatomy of a Novel Ch 54-55

 

Chapter 54

Boston and Brookline, Massachusetts

November

 

 

“THAT WAS STRANGE.” Gareth came out of his study into the living room. He was in his pajamas and dressing gown although it was only eight in the evening. A fire burned in the fireplace.

Daphne was curled up on the couch reading another Spenser mystery. She was in her fuzzy pajamas brought from Edinburgh where a chilly flat made them mandatory.

The couple could regulate the heat in the apartment, but Gareth believed it should be kept no more than 65° in rooms they were using and 60° in rooms they weren’t. They were not responsible for paying for either heat or electricity, but Gareth felt it was his responsibility to be financially prudent. The last two men in his position were legendary for running up huge bills and one of his mandates was to cut costs.

The bay window had double-glazed glass. During the day the sun added a natural heat but at night they shut the thick drapes to keep it in. For the fun of it, Daphne had put her hand first on the side of the drapes facing the living room and then on the side facing the window. There was barely a difference.

“What was strange.”

“That was Yves DuBois on the phone.”

Daphne waited for him to continue. Asking too many questions usually set him off about her being too impatient and if she would just let him speak, she wouldn’t need to ask. She’d developed the habit of cocking her head to indicate she was listening and waiting.

“He invited us to dinner on Thursday. Said it was very informal and we weren’t to discuss politics, strictly two couples relaxing and getting to know each other.”

“And …”

“I said yes.”

*****

Thursday night Gareth and Daphne caught the Greenline’s D Riverside bound car at Copley Square and got off at Brookline Village. A few minutes walk led them to the French Consul General house. There was a small sign on a post outside the metal spiked gate. A security guard sat in a small house just outside. He was reading a book and didn’t notice them.

Although Daphne was curious as to the title, she couldn’t see it through the foggy glass of the little house.

The soldier looked startled when he saw them before sliding the window open.

“We’re having dinner with Monsieur and Madame DuBois,” Gareth said.

“Mr. and Mrs. Andrews?”

If he knows who we are than he shouldn’t have been surprised when we showed up, she thought. And he should recognize me. I’ve been here enough. “Yes.”

“I need some identification, please.” He wore a local security guard company’s blue uniform. His accent was local.

As soon as they produced their passports and handed them through the glass window, the soldier used his phone to call the house. He spoke so softly and so rapidly in French that Daphne did not catch what he was saying. She suspected finding bilingual security guards in Boston was difficult. Probably gave him job security.

The soldier opened the gate and pointed them to the door. The house was a large three-story Victorian complete with turrets. Spotlights showed the color to be raspberry with black shutters.

The front door was open by the time they reached it.

Yves DuBois stood backlit by the hall light. He was dressed in ironed jeans and an Irish knit sweater. He wore a blue scarf around his neck. Florence was beside him. She wore a long denim skirt and a rose sweater that came down over her hips. Her scarf was a twirly pattern of rose, white and blue. Her silver earrings dangled a good two inches from her lobes.

Daphne was grateful that Gareth had listened about informal and hadn’t worn a suit and tie. He had on brown corduroy pants and a beige sweater. She’d worn tailored black slacks and a black and white checkered sweater.

Well, the first step, proper clothing, has gone smoothly, Daphne thought. There’s nothing in what we’re wearing to make us look out of place and cause Gareth to be upset.

The French couple led them into a library with wall-to-ceiling bookcases. There was a wooden ladder matching the wood of the shelves attached on a runner to help people reach the top shelves.

“Banyuls,” Yves said, pouring a red liquid into four small glasses. “It is from the Côte de Vermeille. My aunt has a place there and we try and spend at least a couple of weeks there each summer if we can.”

He didn’t ask us what we wanted to drink, Daphne thought. Gareth’s frown left her wondering if he would mention it on the way home. When he took a sip and pronounced it “good” she relaxed a bit. It did taste a bit like Porto, and she knew Gareth liked Porto.

A variety of olives and small crackers were passed around.

“We said no politics,” Yves said. “I’m trying to develop relationships with other couples and escape the protocols for a short time. I don’t know about you, but I do get tired of all the rituals.”

This brought a smile to Gareth’s face. “It’s the price we pay for our positions.”

“So, let’s find out about each other as people not posts,” Yves said. “Do you ski?”

“I’m afraid not. My family went to Chamonix when I was nine, and during my first lesson, I broke my leg so badly I was in traction for almost a month,” Gareth said.

“That would put me off skiing,” Florence said. “We’ve skied at Chamonix. We’ll be trying Vermont over Christmas.”

Before Daphne could mention that her husband played tennis and squash,” Gareth asked, “There wouldn’t be a chance you play squash?”

“Adore it. Great workout. Maybe we could arrange a date.”

The maid entered the room to say dinner was ready when they were.

Dinner was a simple bullion soup as a starter, maigret de canard as a main course with carrots and peas. When the dinner plates were cleared away, the maid brought a cheese platter. Yves named each one then passed a breadbasket with a baguette cut into thin slices and served red wine. “I miss my boulangerie, but I found a French bakery close by.”

“I’ve been there. You’re right,” Daphne said. She and Florence had developed the habit of stopping there after their meetings. She willed Florence not to say that.

“It’s not quite the same. I suspect the flour is different,” Yves said. “Never mind, it is still good.”

Conversation covered tennis, especially the younger players that were coming up to replace Murray, Federer, Nadel and Djokovic.

Yves spoke of the Boston Symphony. Gareth preferred classical music, but Florence said she loved pop.

Mostly, Daphne was glad there were no verbal traps until they returned to the library where the maid brought the decaf after-dinner espressos in floral china demitasses carried on a silver tray.

“I’m so proud of what my wife is doing with the historical comic books. You must be too,” Yves said when they were sipping the brews.

This is it. Trouble, Daphne thought

Gareth said nothing.

“Has you wife shown you the first panels?”

“No,” Gareth said.

“Florence, go get the first few pages.”

When she’d returned with the oversized drawings,” Yves pointed out the details of the houses, clothing, plants. “Your wife created such a wonderful story. It will be interlinked with a second comic, the story of Adam, Abigail’s twin. At first, I thought the idea of two comic books was … well, not practical, but when my wife showed me what these two talented women had done, I was convinced.” He placed his cup on a side table covered with decoupage and went behind where Florence sat to drop a kiss on top her head. She held her demitasse in one hand. With the other, she caressed Yves’ face.

Daphne was afraid to look at Gareth. Shut up, Yves. Shut up, Yves, a silent prayer.

“Now the idea to self-publish is probably better than trying to find a publisher. We need to get these books into school libraries around the country. I’ve already located some distributors for them.”

Florence hadn’t told him, then, about the publisher they were meeting Monday.

Yves went on about other comics the women could create. He had them running an educational publication empire.”

Gareth put down his demitasse. “This has been a wonderful evening and we thank you two for a great dinner.”

Florence smiled. “It is a joy to entertain you.”

The guard unlocked the gate for them when they left. Yves and Florence stayed by the front door waving. The light behind them turned them into silhouettes.

Gareth grabbed Daphne’s elbow and propelled her toward the Brookline Village T stop. He didn’t say a word as the T passed Fenway nor when they descended at Copley nor when they entered their flat. He went into his study and slammed the door.

The next day when Daphne woke, his side of the bed had not been slept in. She went looking for him only to discover the guest bedroom had been used and he’d left for work. 

Chapter 55

Argeles-sur-mer, France

June 

 I FINISHED ANOTHER review which I alternated with research. Until I had more information from that research, I couldn’t continue. It was obvious with or without that research that General Gage was growing more and more desperate. The pressure from London had to have added to it.

The question was how to portray Gage’s desperation. Since I have written nothing from Gage’s point of view, it makes more sense to show it through James’ point of view.

I didn’t want to write a scene where I send James with Colonel Leslie to Salem to seize the stolen cannons. The General would want him to stay in Boston and not risk him going on a mission.

The solution was to have James sit in on Leslie’s report to the General. This is the device I used to reveal much of the history. James makes a good reporter.

What surprised me was what I discovered about Leslie’s mission. Even being from New England and having visited Salem many times, I never knew about this preliminary skirmish, only about the big battle in Lexington. It was not taught in any of my American history classes.

When I visited Salem, it was more to look at the history of the witch trials and Nathaniel Hawthorne’s House of Seven Gables. The town itself relied heavily on tourists and as such has a commercial feel.

On visits, I admit I was more interested in a candy store that sold old-fashioned Molasses Sponge Toffee. Made with sour vinegar, sugar, butter and baking soda, it creates a bubbly foam, which hardens leaving air pockets. The candy melts in the mouth. It’s hard to find, but each Christmas my daughter tracks it down as a special present.

I don’t know if that candy existed in the days that the General was searching for weapons. If it had, I could have made it a favorite of Mrs. Gage.

This is what I find frustrating — work is going smoothly but in 45 minutes we need to take Sherlock to the vet. It is more a series of small things such as check if his ear infection is gone than anything serious. I’m sure every writer finds life interferes with writing.

 

Lesington: Anatomy of a Novel Ch. 52-53

 

Chapter 52

Brookline, Massachusetts

November

 “Brilliant, absolutely brilliant.” Daphne sat in Florence’s studio. She had commandeered the cupola on the third floor of the French Consul General’s home in Brookline.

“Far enough away from any chance somebody will wander in when we entertain and there’s a WC just at the bottom of the stairs.” Florence waved to the door.

Although it was a cloudy day, the windows around the cupola let in enough light that even without the spotlights that had been installed for Florence, she had the illumination she needed to work either on the computer or on her drawing board.

“You like them? They’re still preliminary.” Florence had created the drawings for the comic book on computer but had printed off paper copies for Daphne and handed her a pencil in case she wanted to make any changes or notes.

Daphne was sitting at the drawing board. A table to the right had the same drawing on an enlarged computer screen.

“You’ve translated my story ideas … well, I’m not sure how to say it.”

“I like brilliant.”

Abigail was shown feeding the chickens and churning butter. Another panel showed her eavesdropping on a meeting of the local Sons of Liberty, who were plotting on how to get the cannons from the firebox at the writing school on Boston Common out to the countryside.

The plan to move them by cart hidden under hay or maybe even manure was shown in a bubble over Abigail’s father head.

Abigail’s twin brother Adam was allowed to be at the meeting. As a girl, she was not.

“Nothing like making a feminist statement while we’re at it,” Florence said. She went to the coffee machine to the right of the entrance and made two espressos. “Sugar?”

Daphne shook her head. She was entranced by Abigail’s face. The girl was beautiful. She could have walked off the paper and found a job modeling anywhere in the world.

What Daphne had found particularly difficult to do was to create the condensed speech balloons, but she and Florence had decided that they could write one or two sentences at the bottom of each panel to increase the storyline. Words were economical but dense.

Gareth had noticed that she was no longer going to the library as often. “Too cold,” Daphne had said.

What she did the moment he left was to work on the storyline. When the words wouldn’t come, she would search the internet for images of furniture, house interiors and exteriors, dishes and clothing she had not found in books. These she e-mailed to Florence. Many of them were incorporated into the drawings.

As for the exterior backgrounds, the two women had spent three days taking photos of the area and houses.

“Your stone wall is unbelievable.” Daphne saw how Abigail was walking on a path along the wall, arguing with her father to be allowed to go to Boston with him and Adam to retrieve the cannon from the schoolhouse. The balloon over her head said, “They’ll never think a girl would hide a cannon.”

“There wasn’t a girl in that wagon as far as we know.” Daphne was bothered that Florence had changed her text where Abigail wanted to go with her father, and he said no.

“How historically accurate do we have to be?” Florence asked.

“As close as possible,” Daphne said.

“Think of the movie Braveheart.”

“Do I have to? It was historically incorrect.” The two women seldom disagreed. One would make a suggestion. The other would add to it strengthening the final result.

“But it makes a better a story,” Florence said.

Before Daphne could say anything Florence made another stab. “You told me the stolen cannon was moved in a wagon covered with manure. We have fictious characters throughout the comic book. A kid reading the comic book won’t care if we don’t have the real name of the wagon owner much less a passenger. The manure is accurate.”

Before Daphne could respond, Florence said, “The girls reading the comic book would find the feisty Abigail much more appealing if she was more participatory.”

“But …”

“Women in those days needed to be strong. I need to do more tweaking on the parts about the battle itself. Maybe we should have her dress in Adam’s clothes.”

“Would she be able to shoot a gun?” Florence asked.

“Probably. It’s probably too late for danger from Indians, but since she’s living in the country, we can have her hunt with her brother and father.”

Florence looked at her watch. “I have this stupid luncheon with the accompanying wives in an hour. Take the drawings home and get back on what you think?”

Daphne had been planning to stay longer.

“I thought I had escaped it, but at the last minute, but Charlotte twisted my arm.”

“You don’t need to explain. We’re in the same situation.”

Florence’s phone rang.

Daphne motioned she could leave to give her friend privacy.

Instead, Florence put it on speaker. “Hello, Jason.”

At first Daphne thought he might be a boyfriend the way they phone flirted, then Jason said, “How about lunch next Monday?” adding, “And bring your partner.”

Florence looked at Daphne, who put her hands out as if to say, “I don’t understand.”

“Daphne’s here with me, Jason. Daphne, you free next Monday?”

Daphne nodded.

“By the way, Daphne meet Jason, Jason meet Daphne.”

“Hi, Daphne.”

“Hello, Jason.”

“Gotta run, Sweetheart. See you and Daphne next Monday.”

“What was that about?”

“Jason and I had a lot of classes together when I took night classes. He’s a Commissioning Editor at Grayson, Inc.”

“And that’s . . .”

“An educational publisher. He wants to see what we’ve got done. I didn’t want to get your hopes up until he agreed to look at our work.”

Chapter 53

Boston, Massachusetts

January 1775

 

 THE BARRACKS WERE strangely quiet when James walked into the room that he shared with many of his regiment. It was the first time he’d been there since becoming ill. He dropped his knapsack on his cot. It looked as if it hadn’t been touched since he’d made it the morning he had left.

Where was everyone? He hadn’t seen any marching troops outside, but almost 18 inches of snow had fallen on the parade ground in the last 48 hours. Maybe there were lectures and classes going on in the lecture rooms.

He wasn’t sure what he should do or to whom he should report. After Dr. Church had left last night, the General had told him to go back to his barracks the next morning. It was time for him to catch up with his regular duties.

He was to report back to the General after the weekend when the General and several top commanders would meet to make plans on how to find missing weapons. They still weren’t sure to where they had been whisked: Charlestown, Arlington, Concord, Salem were all possibilities. “As much as I appreciate all that you do, James, a time may come that I will need every soldier on the battlefield. If there’s a God in heaven, I hope it never comes to that, but we must be ready.”

James found it hard to imagine Englishmen fighting Englishmen. He’d seen how the locals, if not born in England, first-, second-, third- or fourth-generation Englishmen, taunted the soldiers, but that was minor compared to overall war. He had heard about the damage a civil war could cause, although many of his fellow soldiers hadn’t. He knew probably because Oliver Cromwell, who had overthrown King Charles many years ago was from Ely. What bothered him was how any war could be called civil.

He hadn’t expected to fight when he joined the army. Maybe that was naïve, but many other soldiers said the same thing. They joined to change their lives, as he had. He joined for adventure, to forget the loss of his wife, to get away from his brother’s domination and be his own person.

Being given a state-of-the-art Brown Bess in comparison to the old weapon he used in Ely to shoot rabbits had been a thrill. It wasn’t that he was a gun lover, but he appreciated its slickness and efficiency.

The hours of practicing loading, the thoroughness of their training down to where they should put their fingers was fascinating. It was also a challenge to be the best he could possibly be. Why, he wondered, did he not realize in his heart that he might be called on to kill people, lots of people in the name of the King. Dumb, dumb, dumb, he chided himself.

James put his belongings in the footlocker at the end of his cot. As he turned the key, he realized he wasn’t alone. He turned. Corporal Tilley stood in the doorway.

“You’re back. How are you?” Tilley had lost weight and was pale as the snow that had fallen last night. A dark beard made his skin look even whiter. He was not in uniform.

“Getting better. And you?”

“Still not back on duty, but I’m out of the infirmary. What a stink. Shit everywhere, vomit everywhere. The doctor himself got sick. They brought in women to act as nurses, but they couldn’t keep up with it all.”

“I’m sorry.” Had James been more religious he’d have thanked God that his accommodations and treatment were privileged. He might say so to God but never to Corporal Tilley.

“Where is everyone?”

“Five men are still in the infirmary. Six have died. The rest are getting lectures.”

“Who died?”

Tilley sat on James’ cot and suggested with a hand movement that James sit next to him. When he did, Tilley took a deep breath and rattled off five names.

James had liked most of the men. It was sad he’d never see them again. Never share a bit of polish for their boots. Never sit at the same table and complain about the porridge. They would cover for each other when one was late getting back to the barracks.

“You said six, but you only mentioned five names.”

Tilley’s eyes wandered around the room before looking straight into James’. “I’m sorry, the sixth is, was, your friend Thomas Miller.”

*****

James sat on his cot and stared at his hands. Corporal Tilley had left him alone saying he needn’t go to any morning lecture. “This afternoon, after lunch, will be soon enough.”

James wasn’t sure how to feel. Thomas couldn’t be dead. They had been friends since they were both in diapers. They’d gone to school together, although Thomas had left two years before James to work with his father.

If he hadn’t let Isaac search for Thomas to bring him to the recruiter that day in Ely, his friend might still be alive. Thomas might be married and have a son of his own. Telling himself that did not help James feel better. Nor did the knowledge that Thomas liked the Army better than he did and was more than happy with his decision to join.

Tears built up behind his eyes. He wouldn’t let them escape.

It wasn’t the army that had killed his friend, it was the stupid sickness, James told himself. That could have happened anywhere. Illnesses devastated Ely from time to time. He could have tripped into the fire when preparing a horseshoe. A horse he was shoeing could have kicked and killed him.

None of these thoughts soothed James.

Loss: losing his parents had produced grief, but it was the normal flow of life. It was different with his wife and new baby. When he lost her, he felt as if someone had beaten him inside and out. That losing Thomas hurt, but less than his wife, didn’t help much.

People died all the time — the young, the old because of illness, accidents and more rarely murder. Grief followed. He didn’t want to get good at grief.

James knew he wasn’t at full strength. Even the walk from the Governor’s mansion to the barracks had left him with wobbly legs. He needed to get out of there but to where?

He put on an extra shirt under his uniform. Only a few steps outside reminded him that his woolen winter coat could not keep out the cold even with the collar pulled up. It came to the middle of his head. He wore the tricorne hat not the bearskin: that would have been warmer. Both would leave his ears vulnerable to the wind sweeping in from the harbor.

The sky was almost dark blue after the storm. Not even a cloud wisp was to be seen.

He shuffled through the snow to the Common where tents had once created a cloth city housing hundreds of troops in neat rows. Now it was a white flat field of pristine snow. Not a footprint of man, bird or beast was visible. He decided to use the street that surrounded the Common.

Even on the sidewalk snow came to his knees, but it was soft and fluffy, not the wet kind that was good for snowballs. He was grateful no kids were on the street to lob them at his uniform.

Shop owners were shoveling the sidewalks in front of their shops. As he passed a few of them scowled at him. What did they expect? Him to shovel?

He wasn’t sure where he was going. It didn’t really matter, because his destination would not change anything. Thomas was dead.

                                                        ***** 

He found himself outside the Boston Gazette. The area in front of the newspaper office had been shoveled. When he opened the door, a bell tinkled.

The office had no counter. A printing press occupied one corner. Shelves held old copies of the newspapers in neat stacks. An open round-top desk had notes shoved in holes at the back. Papers were scattered in no particular order at the front. A pot with several quill pens, bottles of black ink and an ebony-handled knife peeked from piles of papers.

Two tables were to the left of the press. Mollie Clark, wearing an ink-stained apron, sat at a table in front of boxes of lead letters. She was arranging them in lines creating a click every time she dropped one into its new place. The click-click-click-click was constant.

She looked up. The clicking stopped. “It’s you.”

He nodded.

She wiped her hands on a cloth to the left of the tray of finished words leaving more black marks from the residue of the ink on the metal letters. “I haven’t seen you for a while. You’re buying our paper somewhere else?”

“I haven’t bought it at all. I’ve been really sick.”

“I heard lots of lobsterbacks had the bloody flux. At least you’ve kept it to yourselves.”

Her voice was musical, her accent local. He knew her father, Benjamin Edes, was born in the area. He was on the General’s troublemaker watch list.

One of James’ assignments had been to find out as much as he could about Edes. He had not progressed very far before he’d been taken ill other than Edes was a third generation local and had an ancestor that had something to do with Harvard’s founding or maybe that was his wife’s family.

James couldn’t very well tell the General the part of Edes family that really interested him the most was the fair Mollie, a widow with no children. No spy was needed to know where Edes’ sympathies lay. The newspaper’s contents made it obvious.

Unlike some of his fellow soldiers, he never had gone to the brothel on Endicott Street just like he didn’t patronize some of the tents that sold liquor outside the army’s tents despite the officers’ objections.

It wasn’t morals that kept James celibate and sober. He may have loved his beer and cider, but as soon as he drank too much, he vomited. He hated vomiting. He hated hangovers. As for sex, the memory of his love life with his wife warmed him and his hand did the rest.

When he’d first seen Mollie, he thought maybe someday he’d be ready for another woman in his life. Although he was just beginning to imagine having another woman he cared about, he promised himself to hold a part of his feelings back to never hurt as much if he lost her.

Many of his fellow soldiers, who saved their money to go to the brothel to “scratch my itch,” invited him to join them. He always found a reason not to. If a soldier who wanted to go was on guard duty, money changed hands and the soldier was off with a smile and James’ stash grew.

If people, fellow soldiers or locals, knew he had some hidden funds, he might be an object for robbery. His pay didn’t go all that far after the army deducted for food, clothing and other expenses.

He didn’t want to reveal that he was saving for when his contract finished to set himself up. The more he thought about it, the more he realized that Boston needed a good bakery. Like all privates working for officers, there was monetary recompense. His funds were growing.

“Do you like bread, good bread?” What a stupid question he thought as soon as the words fell from his mouth, but he had to keep her talking to him.

Mollie folded the towel she had used to wipe her hands. “What?”

He repeated the question.

“I eat a lot of it.”

“Do you make your own?”

“I’m too busy. I usually eat with my parents.”

He wondered where she lived. “And is it good? The bread that is? Not living with your parents.”

“I don’t live with them. I have the house my husband and I shared before he died.” She folded her arms across her chest. “This is a strange conversation.”

I’m a strange person, he thought but didn’t say it. His experiences growing up in Ely made him feel like an outsider because he often thought differently from his family and to a certain extent his friends. He had become good at pretending he thought the same way they did. The only person he ever told of his real feelings and ideas was his wife, and she just nodded never saying he was wrong. Any hope he had had that he would feel he belonged in the army had crashed during training.

“I was a baker before I joined the army.”

He was beginning to feel dizzy.

She nodded. “Where’s your friend who comes in with you?”

James needed to sit. His hands began to shake. “He died. Bloody flux.” The tears he’d been holding back burst forth and he couldn’t stop.

Mollie immediately locked the door and flipped the open sign to closed. She covered the windows with curtains, hiding the newspaper office from passersby. She moved to his side pulling the chair where she’d been sitting and forced him to sit.

He hated being so weak in front of her.

She gathered him into her arms. He could feel the softness of her breasts behind the roughness of her apron.

Between thinking of Thomas and the fool he was making of himself, he couldn’t stop sobbing no matter how much he wanted to.

He heard her say, “Take deep breaths.”

He did as he was told. Slowly he raised his head and started to stand up. The room seemed to move. He sat back down with a thump.

Mollie realized what was happening. She shoved his head between his legs. “It’ll be all right. Just take your time.”

She must think him a total weakling, he worried. “I’m sorry. This is my first day out after being sick and …”

“Too soon, I’d say. And losing your friend on top of it. When did you find out?”

He lacked the strength to argue.

“An hour ago. At the most.”

“Can you sit here if I leave you? You won’t fall off the chair or anything?”

He shook his head.

Mollie went behind the curtain at the back of newspaper office. He heard her rustling around. She came back with a mug. “Drink this.”

He did and almost spit it out. “What is it?”

“Rum and apple juice. Finish it. When you’re a little stronger, I’ll walk you back to the barracks.”

Despite all his protests, she wouldn’t let him go alone. Her alternative suggestion that she go to the barracks and find someone to help him back was worse.

More of the sidewalks had been shoveled since earlier but there were still places that they needed to kick their way through white fluff. He noticed Mollie’s dress from the hem to just below her knees was snow covered. It would be wet when she went into the warmth.

At the barracks door, she said, “I think you’ll be fine from here.”

Since he wasn’t sure what to say, he said nothing.

“I need to get back to setting my type. I don’t think I saw anyone I know. If word reaches my father that I’m walking with the enemy, he’ll be furious.”

“Am I the enemy?”

“Maybe not you, but what you represent is.”

He tried to thank her, but she just waved her hand.

What would he say, if we walked together and I wasn’t in uniform?”

She smiled. “I’ll have to think about it.”

 

Confessions of an Ex American Part 111

One of the saddest days

This was written the day I renounced.

Part of me will always love the man I thought my ex-husband was. After trying everything, I divorced the real man.

Part of me will always love the country I thought I grew up in. Like trying to save my marriage, I tried everything. I’ve made hundreds of overseas calls to Congress and sent thousands of emails. I’ve followed legislation from committee to signing. Most was about Bill of Rights issues such as the loss of habeas corpus. If the president does not veto the new amendment just passed by the Senate, than the military will have the power to arrest anyone, anywhere with no charges, no trial indefinitely. I have made no calls and sent no emails on this one. I am disengaging.

Today I divorced my country. The decision was not easily reached with too many facets to recount here just like I won’t recount the whys of my divorce to my ex-husband.

The U.S. Consulate is in Bern. The rain on my umbrella drowned out normal street sounds.

I was told I could tap on the door. A guard came out and growled I couldn’t bring in my pocketbook.

“What should I do?”

“Leave it in your car?”

“I haven’t a car.”

“The bakery down the street to the right will keep it for you. Three Swiss Francs.”

The woman at the bakery was friendly and told me I also had to leave my phone, my camera and my medicine. I could take my wallet and my passport.

Back at the consulate there was an airport-type examination, and then I went down stairs for a second examination. This man was friendly and we chatted as I waited my turn.

A woman called my name and asked for verification on the information I already provided.

Then the Counsel came out, a thin man with glasses.

He told me that my decision was irrevocable—I could never live or work in the U.S. again. I could never get my citizenship back--not tomorrow - not in 30 years. I signed that I understood.

He asked me to raise my right hand and swear that I was renouncing. My eyes blurred. “Are you certain you want to go through with it?”

Then I had to take a second oath. “What if I change my mind here?” I asked. I didn’t want to change my mind, I was just curious.

“Then I would take this back and we could probably . . .”

I shook my head. “It hurts, but I’m sure.” I took the second vow.

Within two weeks to two months I will get my cancelled passport and my certificate of renunciation. I will then pay $450. I can take that around to the banks so I can resume normal banking relations because I will not be subject to U.S. FATCA legislation that has caused so many problems for Americans and will continue to cause problems and other financial institutions. If Switzerland and the US do not come to agreement about the US having access to Swiss police records, it is possible I would need a visa to enter the U.S. It is also possible I wouldn't get one. I knew when I started this that I might never be able to enter the U.S. again.

Leaving the consulate to retrieve my bag at the bakers, I vomited.

Like the day I was divorced, this was one of the saddest of my life. I don't regret the choice. 

Note: For the next few years I have worked in various degree of intensities to get FATCA withdrawn. The fee went up to $2350 and only now, the third weekend in March 2026, has it been dropped back to the $450. I've appeared on Swiss Television and been quoted in most American papers. My Swiss doctor was shocked to find my name in a Canadian paper when he was taking his daughter to university there.

Lexington: Anatomy of a Novel Ch. 50-51

 

Chapter 50

Boston, Massachusetts

January 1775

 

 

DR. BENJAMIN CHURCH stood outside the Governor’s mansion front door. He stamped his feet and brushed snow off his cloak to keep from tracking any inside to a minimum.

Rather than wait for the maid to answer the door, the General opened the door himself, his hand outstretched. “Welcome, welcome.”

The doctor dropped his medical bag and handed his cloak to the maid standing behind the General.

Church wore his wig, although Gage did not. “I suppose I should take a gander at young Holloway.”

“He’ll be eating with us this evening, Dr. Church.” Mrs. Gage had followed her husband into the hallway. “I’ll add my welcome. I hope you’re hungry.

“Famished. I was in Concord this morning where I had my breakfast but not a bite since then.”

James was already seated at the table with its blue-flowered patterned china and crystal wine glasses. He rose when the Doctor and Gages entered. Because of the heavy oriental carpet covering the parquet flooring, there were no sounds of chairs being pulled out and pushed back as they seated themselves.

The smell of roasting meat wafted in from the kitchen located next to the dining room.

“Will you say grace, Dr. Church?” Mrs. Gage asked.

James was surprised. Since he had been out of bed, he had taken all of his meals with the family. No one had said grace. The four of them joined hands.

“Dear Lord, thank you for the meal we are about to receive. We are grateful for your help in preserving the peace in these trying times. May you grant us the wisdom and strength to persevere to do your mission on earth and to save our precious King. Amen.”

“That was lovely, Dr. Church.” Mrs. Gage rang a small bell to the left of her fork.

The maid appeared with a pork roast surrounded by carrots and onions. She set it in front of the General to carve, which he did with flare. When everyone was served the meal and a red wine poured, he said, “Eat everything, James. You must rebuild your strength.”

“His stomach is still delicate, General. Eat what you are comfortable with, Holloway,” Dr. Church said.

The General had a piece of meat halfway to his mouth. He frowned as if to say, “I’m not used to being corrected. I don’t like it.” Instead, he said, “Let’s not waste any more time. Although we shouldn’t discuss affairs over a good meal, if we wait until after dinner, the snow will make it harder for you to go home, Church.”

James noted that the General did not use doctor in addressing his guest. Over the months that he’d been an orderly, he had observed multiple ways people spoke and positioned themselves physically that were heavy with multiple meanings.

“I appreciate that, Gage. The shorter my stay, if anyone sees me coming and going, they will assume I’m doing my doctorly duty for poor James here.”

“Rather than selling secrets,” James thought, although he doubted that Dr. Church was being paid. Or maybe he was. James did not like the doctor, even if he had taken excellent care of him. Cranesbill and witch hazel had helped early on, although James and the chamber pot had been constant companions until two weeks ago.

During most of his illness, even the idea of eating had made James want to vomit. He accepted the broth force-fed him by Mrs. Gage spoonful by spoonful. Swallowing was preferable to throwing up on the good lady.

For the first time since he had fallen ill, the food on his plate looked a bit appealing. He brought his attention back to the conversation.

“Your letters have been very informative,” the General said, “I do hope that you are disguising your handwriting in case they fall into the wrong hands.”

“And I’m sure you are destroying them after digesting them.”

“Of course.”

The General was lying, James knew. The letters were filed in chronological order, because he was the one who filed them. Some he had copied for forwarding to London. In some cases, the General had added notes, actions taken and recommendations. Perhaps he wanted a record if his superiors in London challenged his decisions. James would never ask. His position was strange enough, and he wasn’t about to take any liberties, although he accepted those volunteered by the General.

Financially, he was being paid extra for his time with the General, which was typical of soldiers serving in officers’ homes as domestic servants. He wondered if he would be paid for staying in bed, acting as a decoy for Dr. Church. He had no intention of asking.

“I’ve news of a new committee being formed.” Dr. Church cut his carrots into smaller pieces. He sipped his wine indicating with a facial expression it was to his liking. “The Committee of Supply. They’re preparing for war.”

“Weapons? Gun powder? “Not planning to steal more cannons? I haven’t heard of any more missing.”

“Yes and no.”

“Which is it? Is there a difference between it and the Committee of Safety?” The General slapped the table so hard with his hand that the wine glasses quivered. “I’m so damned tired of this committee and that committee and all of them against our King.”

Dr. Church nodded. “They’ve only been meeting since November, Gage, the Committee of Safety, that is.”

James noted that Dr. Church was not in the least cowed by the General. Perhaps as a leading surgeon from a respected local family, he felt he was an equal. Or perhaps it was because the government run by the British were losing power to the local governments that were being formed in the different towns surrounding the city. Dr. Church, James thought, was covering himself no matter what happened.

“They’re preparing for a possible war,” Church said.

“They wouldn’t be that damned stupid. Country bumpkins against the power of England. We’ve had a civil war with Cromwell, and we all know that was a disaster.”

“I’m not sure they know of it. It would have been their grandparents or great grandparents or even great-great. Many of the people here now have been here for two, three generations so their awareness of events so long ago in another country …” Church cut a piece of meat, but did not put it into his mouth “… is limited.”

Throughout the exchange Mrs. Gage and James did not move or speak. Their eyes would meet. James wished he could read her mind. He suspected by little things she said or didn’t say that she felt some sympathy for the locals but would not cross her husband.

“And what is this Committee of Safety doing?”

“Not just weapons. Remember almost every person has his own musket. They are laying in salt pork, flour, rice and other foods that will last. Mess bowls. They are looking for tools, shovels, spades.”

The General sat back in his chair. He played with his fork. “I’m not sure what rag tag farmers can do with shovels against our well-trained force.”

“They’re training, too. And they are using your manuals, especially on weapons.”

Again, the General leaned forward. “We must find those cannons. We must destroy their supplies. I don’t see any other way to stave off a conflict.” 

Chapter 51

Geneva, Switzerland

May

I’VE GONE OVER the previous 128 pages and done my first round of corrections before continuing. Because we were in quarantine, there were fewer distractions.

I think I can see the end as we get closer to the April Lexington battle. I know where I’m going with Daphne, Gareth and Florence, although that doesn’t mean I won’t change.

My husband wants to see what I’ve written so he can read it on his flight from Toulouse to Dallas next week. We are out of quarantine in time for him to see his grandkids in Dallas and attend the aviation conference in Florida.

I haven’t told him about these insertions, but he will notice my new working title Anatomy of a Novel: Lexington. I already visualize the cover. I’m curious about his reaction. What will I do if he hates it?

 

 

Confessions of an Ex-American Part II

Although I planned to get Swiss Citizenship, I did not plan to give up my American. I worked my way through Swiss Permis A, B and C. I had to be a resident 12 years to apply for the passport. It took another three years eight months and three days and a number of interviews at the village, canton and national levels plus much paperwork for acceptance.

In my final interview I was asked if I'd seen the morning paper with a story about corruption of a government building. They were aghast when I said it was wonderful until I explained that a problem cannot be corrected until it is known. They laughed when I said the last French book I read was a translation by Mary Higgins Clark but that I read Amélie Nothrom, even though she is Belgian.

The big day came for me to take my oath. I symbolically threw my paper Permis B in the trash. A man in a Medieval hat and cloak led the 90 future citizens through the Alabama Room. Yes, Alabama for a treaty that concluded the American Civil War involving Britain which was signed there in 1872.

My first ballot package was on my seat and I voted in my first Swiss Election a few days later. We took the oath of citizenship, sang the national anthem (I sang softly because I have a terrible voice) and then went to another hall for pan surprise, champage and a gift picture book about Geneva.

As a news junkie, I continued to follow the news in several countries including the U.S. A colleague of mine, another American taking Swiss nationality and I followed U:S. politics, especially legislation we cared about and I made a lot of calls to Congress on issues I cared about. I started the conversations saying, "I'm an ex-pat and I vote. I didn't always say in another state  or district.

In October, I was spending a month writing in my Southern French Studio that I had bought for $18,000. The postman brought the ballot. In French, I said, "Good. I can vote for the American president."

"Who are you voting for."

"Obama."

"Good, I'll give you the ballot."

At the post when I handed the ballot in the person asked whom I was voting for. When I told her, she said she wouldn't throw it away. I don't know if they were joking.

All went well until Carl Levin and Elise Bean among other congress people created FATCA, a 2010 U.S. federal law requiring all non-U.S. foreign financial institutions (FFIs) to search their records for customers with indicators of a connection to the U.S., including records of birth or prior residency in the U.S. 

Every cent an American earns anywhere in the world is subject to U.S. taxation even if the money never touched U.S. soil. It is the only country that requires this. It also applies to Green Card holders who have left the country and will never return and will never earn any more money in the U.S.

As a result my bank told me they would close my account. If they were caught with an American on their books, they would be shut out of the U.S. market and pay huge penalties. 

People who had fiduciary responsibility in companies or other organizations lost their positions under the bank threat. It wasn't just Switzerland, it was all over the world. The application of FATCA varied.

Other Americans were threatened with account closings. Mortgages and loans were called in. It applies to insurance and any other financial programs.

My bank gave me time to renounce to get the Certificate of Loss of Nationality from the U.S. Government.

Tomorrow, I will write about the process of going to the Embassy to renounce and on Sunday my continued fight with others.

Lexington: Anatomy of a Novel Ch.48-49

 

Chapter 48 I think

Boston, Massachusetts

November

 

 

“WE NEED TO compare agendas.” Gareth entered the bedroom at 5:17 p.m., much earlier than usual. He had already removed his suitcoat and loosened his tie. He rummaged in his closet for a hangar. Many nights he was required to attend dinners or events either alone or with Daphne, but this was a free evening.

Then again there were those nights that he stayed at the consulate to win the paperwork war. New staff was helping with the problem, but training took time.

“Daphne sat at her dressing table. She turned to look at him. What she wanted to say was, “Hello, Love, how are you?” but instead when she saw his scowl, she went over to him and put her hand on his arm. “Bad day?”

“Two of the three new women we hired quit.” He shook off her hand and pulled a hangar out of the closet and hung his jacket on it aligning it with other jackets before putting his tie on the tie rack.

After removing his pants, he neatly folded them over another hangar. Then he dressed in sweatpants and a t-shirt. He padded across the room in his stocking feet. “What’s for dinner? We can do the agendas then.”

“I hadn’t planned anything because I didn’t know you were coming home.” That morning, he’d told her he’d be late. “Why did they quit?”

“Don’t change the subject. Is it too much to expect a meal after a hard day?”

“We can order out. Chinese? Japanese? Italian?”

“I’m going for a walk to clear my head. I’ll decide when I get back.” He slammed the door of the bedroom. A few seconds later he came back to get his sneakers. He slammed the bedroom door a second time. She heard his footsteps going down the hall. It was too far away to hear if he slammed the entryway door.

Daphne went back to her dressing table in the corner. It doubled as a desk.

Repeated questions to herself on whether she should continue her marriage were beginning to bore her. A friend once said, a woman should always talk to ex-girlfriends or wives before getting seriously involved with any male. She never learned the names of Gareth’s previous girlfriends.

Still, their early weekends in Boston had been wonderful. She wasn’t sure when browsing in bookstores or reading the Sunday papers in bed with the smell of fresh coffee coming from their kitchen changed to his snipping at her.

She had been so sure that she finally had found someone who not only knew history but the current politics of many countries. He fascinated her. So many of the men she’d dated thought mainly of sports and although Gareth cheered for Manchester United, his interest was to check the final score.

Sexually, they’d been a good fit. After the first-time unease, which was more or less eliminated by passion, they had aligned their needs. Except for the last three weeks when Gareth was much too tired. She debated slipping him a Viagra so he would have no choice.

All marriage requires adjustments, she thought. Add in an international move, a job that was understaffed, it was no wonder he was so uptight so often. He had refused to let her come in and at least answer the phone or catch up on filing, paper or electronic, to free up one of the remaining staff members to do more important things.

“You job is to be my charming wife for dinners and events,” he’d said.

Daphne sighed as she turned to the mirror behind the laptop on her dressing table/desk. In a way she was lucky that she didn’t have to worry about a lot of the things a couple setting up a home had to worry about. It wasn’t her style to fuss about the color of walls and matching drapes and upholstery.

The temporary flat had come totally furnished, and if it were not to her taste, the style would have looked perfect in a Hercules Poirot mystery.

It was fun living there. She looked to the left of her dressing table next to the window and its view of Comm Ave. The trees which were covered in pink blossoms when they had arrived in the spring and had settled into their summer green colors, then turned red and dropped to the ground leaving bare branches.

The windows were thick enough that no matter how much traffic was below, it was silent inside. During the summer, air conditioning had kept the flat free of the humidity and high temperatures that could often feet like a bucket of hot water thrown over her body when she went out. Now that it was cold, the heating system was individually controlled. As English they learned to keep the temperatures on the low side and to put on sweaters. The couple of American homes she’d been in had seemed much too hot.

Instead of cosmetics, of which she used very little, Daphne had installed her laptop on the dressing table. There was room for a book or a paper, but Daphne had always liked neat working spaces. If she had several books and papers to consult, she put them on the bed in an order that made referencing simple.

She had moved an office chair with wheels up to the dressing table to move between the bed and table, despite Gareth’s objections at how it looked. To humor him she changed the chair for the original seat at the end of the day.

At times she wondered if she were a bit OCD with how neatly she tried to work, but in her teenage years, her things were scattered all over the place and she could never find anything. During her second year of university, she had developed a system that worked well in her tiny studio flat and her equally small office at Tweed.

Gareth had commandeered the spare bedroom as his office. For the two of them to try and work in the same room was impossible, although Gareth didn’t consider she had work. He had told her that he wanted her to give up the comic book project. Her reply was that wasn’t reasonable. A phone call had interrupted the discussion and they had not returned to it. Daphne hoped that meant he had forgotten about it. She doubted it.

On the few nights he was free, he wanted her to sit beside him on the sofa as they watched television or Netflix movies, usually James Bond or sci-fi. Neither genre interested Daphne but looking at them with her husband short-circuited his pouting and she enjoyed some of the acting.

Some nights if it were something that didn’t interest her, she mentally planned her research and writing for the next day. A week ago, she had started a knitting project during the television programs.

“These aren’t little things for a new baby?” Gareth had asked.

“It’s a sweater for you, Darling.” She planted a kiss on his cheek. The two first nights she had cast on the stitches and did three rows on the back. When they’d watched a Netflix documentary a week later, she’d finished the 20^th row. At least the time sitting wasn’t wasted.

The nights that Gareth didn’t make it home before 10 or 11 were wonderful. It added to her research/writing time. She’d already discovered the clothes her characters would wear and forwarded photos to Florence for the drawings.

The two women messaged almost daily on their progress. With each passing day, Daphne was growing more and more excited. Twins Abigail and Adam were becoming real to her.

Five trips to Lexington with her camera showed her houses and the landscape. All of which she shared with Florence who sent pencil sketches back.

“I picked up sushi,” Gareth called from the front door. “Meet you in the kitchen.”

Chapter 49

Boston, Massachusetts

January 1775

 

JAMES DIDN’T UNDERSTAND why he was still sleeping at the Gage household other than the General’s orders. It had taken three weeks before he started feeling human and even now he tired easily. He suspected if he were doing the regular marching drills, he would have recovered faster, having been forced to build up strength with the exercise.

He missed the camaraderie of other soldiers. If he appreciated getting out of some of mundane daily chores, what he learned about Boston and the people who were in charge combined with what he gleaned from the natives, he found fascinating.

He was grateful that he could read and write. Written words fascinated him, although books were non-existent in his childhood home. Because he was such a strong reader, he’d often been asked to read documents for his friends or their parents. More than once, he had written letters for them.

The General continued commuting between Salem and Boston. Salem was less hostile, but he claimed he could get the “lay of the land” better in Boston.

At least once a day when he was with the General, James heard him say how he wanted peace adding, “If only they could see what war is like. I’ve seen enough battles to know it’s a living hell.”

During James’ recovery, Mrs. Gage spent hours with him, first in the bedroom he had taken over and later, when he was stronger, in the library or dining room depending on the time of day. Because her children were occupied with their tutor and the staff saved her the need to do domestic chores, he wondered if she were bored and thus wanted to hear about floods in Ely or how a bakery operated. She pressed him with question after question including about his late wife. For the first time, when he spoke of Bess, their life together seemed like something from his imagination.

They talked about the rebels, because that is how the General and members of his government called them, becoming more restless. Mrs. Gage called them patriots but not in her husband’s hearing.

As James grew stronger, she insisted that he dress and go downstairs. They were sitting in the room designated as the library with about 100 leather-covered books. “Do you read, James? You’re staring at the books.”

“At least news sheets. I have fallen behind with events since I’ve been sick.”

“I will give you my copies. What’s your favorite?”

“The Boston Gazette.”

“Mine too. The General won’t look at it.” She leaned towards him and lowered her voice although the General had left for the State House an hour before. “It would do him good. He could learn what they are thinking, maybe even see their point of view. They aren’t totally wrong with what they want.”

James wasn’t sure how to respond to that.

“Does that shock you? Of course, I can’t share that opinion with my husband.”

He nodded.

She looked out the window. With her back to him, she continued. “I was born in New Jersey. I’ve lived in London, but it was like a foreign country to me, although I did enjoy the luxury.” She laughed. “I admit it. I do enjoy comfort.”

Beth poked her head through the door to ask if they wanted anything. Mrs. Gage turned from the window and ordered tea for both of them. “I’m almost ashamed of how easily we can get tea and how most of the Bostonians would have to sell their souls to pay for a good cuppa.” She handed Beth the key to the box where she’d locked their supply.

“By the way, Dr. Church will join us for dinner tonight. Your being here gives him an excuse to spend time.”

James wondered if that was why Gage kept him in the house during his illness. Tomorrow he would resume his duties and then only the more secretarial ones. Although secretarial duties were not part of the original plan when he assumed the role of part-time orderly to the General, his abilities in reading and writing, once discovered by the General, were put to use. In that capacity, he had read some of the reports from Dr. Church about the rebels, as Church also called them.

Once alone in the library, James answered several correspondences from London. A ship was sailing in two days and the General wanted to make sure that his superiors knew the full extent of the situation.

 

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